Friday, December 18, 2009

Today

Jeff comes home today! I'm so excited. Yes, I know it's only been a week, but every Friday feels like this now.

We're going to have dinner together at the table tonight. Then we're going to take the girls to go see Santa. Maybe take a free carriage ride through the park, and then come home and have some coco and read Christmas stories.

While I wait for Jeff to get here I've decided to take myself to the temple. I can't tell you how tired I am of feeling sad. I just can't stand it. I don't like to feel this way and I've done everything I can think of to fix it. I think when I really examine why I'm not feeling happy during the holidays, it' cuz I'm depressed. Well, I'm going to try and fix that today. The temple is peaceful and serene. I hope that I can feel closer to my savior while I'm there too, which is the whole reason we have Christmas to begin with.

9 comments:

dani said...

give Him your sadness, heidi, really surrender it; and ask Him to fill you up with HIMSELF. He will do it. i promise:)
much love and a prayer,
dani xxxx

Jen A. said...

there is nothing better for a sad soul than the temple. Have a good time.

Alicia said...

I hope you have a great weekend, and that you feel better! I love the peace of the temple! We are so blessed to have that available to us.

LKP said...

here here! take a does of temple & call me in the morning. =) i remember that's how my fridays were when seth was working in wyoming. whichever fridays he actually got to come home were always like christmas morning to me. so i say have your cake & eat it too, today! shoot i used to have a week's collection of CD's where each disc was titled by the day of the week. monday's i was always bluest, so i had my most soothing depression music on that one. by friday's disc, i was all amp'd up thanks to that mix. silly what we have to do sometimes, but hey we're SURVIVING on this rock! do what ya gotta do. =) love ya.

SuzanSayz said...

Heidi, I'm so proud of you. You have shown faith and been blessed for it. You have made me look inside myself and I have seen things that I really need to change. Amazing what our children can teach us.

LKP said...

comments off above?! just wanted to send you my best congrats on feeling better. and .....pst....marshmallows. make marshmallows. ;)

LKP said...

p.s. did you catch this year's devotional? something happened and so we missed it initially. but its available online now and i was thinking, for added measure, perhaps checking it out online may help bolster your happiness. just sayin' love you!

Lisa said...

I heard the song "Where are you, Christmas" yesterday and thought of you. I'm glad things are looking up.

Jeanette said...

Going to the temple is always such a blessing. I am glad you walked away feeling the peace you needed.